hey there ,
i got my asthma back . firstly , yeayy dah lama tak sakit . but , when i think oof it back , ouh no . my life is going to be so bored because im going to stay on my bed , eating and sleeping all day and night to get a rest . well sakit ni pun ada hikmah nye jugakkan .
my mom ask me something . are you sttressed on something ? i would like to say no mama . my mom ask again , when is your result ? i said on the 4th Nov mama . then she said , i think i know why you were sick like this . since you are school you cant even stressed on something . when you are stressed you are become like this .
ouh hello , how could i dont even stress ? i know that my result is going to down . i dont want to be unuseful daughter anymore. i try to make them proud . im not clever , im not good enough , im not pretty ( haha xde kena mgena ) . at least my result can make them proud .
i explained to my mom what should i do ? my mom said if your result is 3pointer then its okay for me . i feel better but i get me tension back what about daddy ? then mother keep silent . i know the answer already that make me stressed all about . this is the stressed at home .
how could i continue my studies in the same class ? what am i going to do ? most of my classmates are a dean list student . its not easy to closed with them because they are a dean list student . they are too smart . even though they are telling me that they are not like that but i know and i feel it how the feeling . they dont even feel cause they dont have a situation same like me .they are very hard to share anything . if you not feel it so shut up . i have the experience thats why i wrote .
so , i dont know what to do . i dont want to sick anymore but it keep dragging me tension . sometimes i feel like i want to stop studies . END*
